Monday, November 1, 2010

Day 2-The Thing I Hate the Most About Myself

It'd be so nice to say "my hips" and call it a day.  I do hate the armpit skin/fat that appears when I am wearing a tank top.

Would it be shallow to say the thing I hate most about myself is a physical thing?

Who am I kidding? It's not a physical thing.

It's mental.

I'm not ever happy with myself. Or my performance. 

I'm very hard on myself. And as a result, I very rarely ever enjoy the moment. 

Beautiful dress, gorgeous evening...I feel fat.

Wonderful day, amazing kids...I made a mistake at work.

Gorgeous man, quality time...I wonder when the other shoe will drop.

How do you change that, though?

It's so funny. I sit here now, thinking back to yesterday's post on what I love about myself and it was that I am very forgiving and loving.  Two things I guess I am not for myself.

3 comments:

  1. Funny (but not) how that happens. We are always the hardest on ourselves. Perhaps that's why we're social creatures... Otherwise, we would just sit in solitude picking ourselves apart.
    I hear ya on this one, lady.

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  2. What you dislike about yourself is a common thing with us women. We are always able to find fault with ourselves or what we've done. When you think about it though, if we couldn't see ANY of our own flaws, who the hell would want to be around us?! We'd be insufferable! LOL

    I just found your blog and the layout/theme is so soothing. I love it!

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  3. I changed it with medication and therapy. A lot of both. ;)

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